What Is Your Biggest Fear?

Written by: Missy Cooper

On Sunday night Pastor Peter kicked off our new series, Blockbuster, and asked us to think about where we might be choosing fear over faith in our lives.  

I wish I could say that I am just getting better and better at choosing faith – that I’m not letting fear creep in anywhere in my life. But that’s not an honest answer. The honest answer is hard. And personal. But during another one of Pastor Peter’s sermons about a year ago, he taught us the importance of naming our fears – of calling them out so we can fight our fears with truth.

My biggest fear? That it is too late to change the inner voices, I helped to create in my kids through my frustration with them, my lack of patience, and my unreasonable expectations of them at times. I am not always a good steward of the blessings God has given me. I have allowed my selfishness, my pride, my ego, and my unrealistic need for ease to take priority over my kids.  
Admitting that is hard. Recognizing that I won’t be free of failing them this side of heaven makes me feel ill.

But, when I name that fear – when I say out loud that I am afraid God cannot use or redeem my failures, what I am really saying is that I do not believe God is who he says he is. I have to choose to believe him or not believe him. Those are my options.

Either he can restore what is broken (Joel 2:25), or he can’t.
Either he is more powerful than I can imagine (Ephesians 3:20), or he isn’t.
Either he is working ALL THINGS for good (Romans 8:28), or he isn’t.
Either he called me to be a mom (1 Corinthians 7:17), or he didn’t.
Either he has equipped me for my calling (Hebrews 13:21), or he hasn’t.
When I read those scriptures, I am reminded of what is true – that I already have every single thing I need to point my kids to Jesus. And the longer I am a parent, the more I believe that some of our most powerful, impactful tools are “I’m sorry,” “I messed up,” “I fell short,” “will you forgive me?”
If my kids can simply learn that they are sinners in need of a Savior, the most critical work I can do in their lives will be done. And if they see ME as a sinner in need of a Savior, that gives them understanding and permission to be the same. Not perfect. Not striving. Not earning. A beloved, chosen child of God.

You may not have kids, but I am willing to bet you have a fear that is tempting you to forget what God says is true. Will you name your fear today and find God’s truth to combat it? I promise you won’t regret it.

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